how

it's getting harder to live with you

you said you think there are many problems with me. i said what can i do to make you happy. you insisted you were speaking rubbish and dint wanna explain anything.

i know. we are keeping things from each other

i wonder if the problem really lies with me? or isit you?

i dun wanna care about you and i dun wanna live with you; i feel stressed when i talk to you, think carefully about what i say to avoid conflicts and i try alot to be nice

the weirdest thing is i dun even know how i became like this

i hate thinking that way :( i dun wanna think that way

it'd gets tired being fake...but there is nothing i can do except to suck it up and live with it

sucks that there is no way to avoid

OH MY GOD :(((((

somehow this whole experience is turning all ugly...

im questioning the way i deal with problems and emotions...isit becoming worse than before?

and i really hate to admit this: 4 more months to endure before it's over :(

how can i make myself enjoy instead of endure...?