how

it's getting harder to live with you

you said you think there are many problems with me. i said what can i do to make you happy. you insisted you were speaking rubbish and dint wanna explain anything.

i know. we are keeping things from each other

i wonder if the problem really lies with me? or isit you?

i dun wanna care about you and i dun wanna live with you; i feel stressed when i talk to you, think carefully about what i say to avoid conflicts and i try alot to be nice

the weirdest thing is i dun even know how i became like this

i hate thinking that way :( i dun wanna think that way

it'd gets tired being fake...but there is nothing i can do except to suck it up and live with it

sucks that there is no way to avoid

OH MY GOD :(((((

somehow this whole experience is turning all ugly...

im questioning the way i deal with problems and emotions...isit becoming worse than before?

and i really hate to admit this: 4 more months to endure before it's over :(

how can i make myself enjoy instead of endure...?

down

2010 is a year of regrets.


too many things done wrongly.


really, i just wanna turn back time and make things right....i reallly really want to turn back and live life once again



im so sick and tired of making the wrong decisions......


sick and tired of my life